I looked deep into her eyes as the tears started to fall down my face. I opened my mouth but nothing could come out. I turned and ran. I ran until I found an empty chair, I collapsed into hysterical sobs. Taggert chased after me, calling my name.

“Emily, don’t you want to know why?” Taggert asked me as he gently took my hand into his.

“Taggert, I never want to talk to that girl again. Not only did she ruin my life she destroyed Lexie’s as well.” I said with anger pouring out of me.

“Emily, just talk to her, maybe you’ll see why she did it.” Taggert said, as he got up and walked away.

I slowly got up with my knees shaking and turned and walked back to face, Lucky’s killer. I walked back into the room where she was kept and her head was down in shame. I looked deep into her eyes and asked her one word, “Why?”

“Emily, God, I’m sorry. I know I can never take back what I did. But Emily, you took him from me...” She said.

“He isn’t a prize to be won, you left him, when we were 16 for his brother and he moved on. Once, we were engaged is when you decided you wanted him back. He told you he was over you and loved me. I still don’t understand why did you do it?” I asked this time with my fists clenched together.

“I told you because you took him from me.” She said.

“Liz, you need to go to Ferncliff.” I said as I turned and walked away. “Damn her!” I said to Luke.

“Baby, there is something you should know,” Luke said to me, “Liz has been in and out of mental institutions ever since she left Port Charles, when she was 16. Before she killed Lucky they had an argument.”

“Luke, what about?” I asked as the tears started to flow faster.

“Emily, I found this out from Liz, so I don’t know how liable it is. But it seems that Liz has Multiple Personalities, and she went to one when she was 15.”

I interrupted him and said, “The time she was raped.”

“Exactly, know from my knowledge Lucky didn’t know about this and she started freaking out and having flashbacks and he didn’t know what to do so he pushed her away and walked out on to the street, thats when she went and killed him.” Luke said with tears welling up in his eyes.

“But, Luke why did she know say that she killed him?” I asked.

“Because, Emily, she’s been getting treatment for her Multiple Personalities, and she has been dealing with a lot of emotions and know just remembered what she did.” Luke said.

“Luke, then how come when I asked her why she did it she said that it was because I stole him away from her?” I asked.

“Emily as of now she has 3 personalities, The normal Liz, we all new and loved, the 15 year old Liz and the 25 year old Liz. It was just another one speaking, I’m guessing either the 15 year old one or the 25 year old one.” Luke said.

I looked deep into his eyes, and said, “Luke, she can’t go to jail she needs help, I can’t send her there if she’s just going to go further down hill. Oh my God! Luke I told her to her face that she needs to go to Ferncliff.” I started shaking.

“Emily, you couldn’t have known no one did. Not Lucky, Laura, even Nik didn’t. The only person in Port Charles that knows is Sarah.” Luke said.

“Taggert!” I yelled.

“Emily whats wrong?” Taggert asked as he came around the corner.

“Taggert, please don’t send her to trial. I don’t want to press charges. Taggert she would never make it, through. It would more damage than anything can’t you send her to Ferncliff?” I pleaded with him.

“Emily, thats not up to me its up the judge, but I will let him and the DA know of your wishes but until then you should go home.” Taggert said.

*~*~*At the Spencers*~*~*

“Laura, Lulu, Lexie were home!” Luke yelled.

“Emily!!” Laura yelled as she ran down the stairs.

“Laura whats wrong? Is it Lexie?” I asked.

“Yes, she’s striking a high fever and we can’t get it down, I think we need to take her to GH.” the fear stricken Laura stated.

“Oh God, can this day get any worse?” Emily shouted.

Lulu came down the stairs carrying a barely conscious Lexie in her arms.

I took one look at her and fear struck my eyes. I walked over and scooped her out of Lulu’s arms and walked toward the car.

*~*~At GH*~*~

I sat in a hard plastic chair, flooded with memories, “This is like the last time I was here, when Lucky died.” The tears started falling this time not for Lucky, but for Lexie’s pain and confusion.

I sat in that chair for hours blocked out from everyone from Luke, Laura, Lulu, and my parents. I sat and prayed, like I’ve never prayed before. I prayed for the greatest gift Lucky ever gave me, the one thing I have left of her, my daughter Lexie. As the seconds and minutes passed by the waiting became longer and longer until finally. Dr. Wexler,
came out and told us the news.

“I’m so sorry, but we think that Lexie has Aplastic Anemia.” Karen said, “we have to put her in the hospital for further test so we can see if she does or not.”

“Aplastic Anemia,” I repeated, “isn’t that what Lulu had, when she was a baby?”

“Yes, Emily it was.” Laura answered.

“We will be running further test from there and we will determine if it really is Aplastic Anemia or not, but for the time being she will be admitted into the hospital. But hours are over so I’m afraid I’m going to have to ask you to leave.” Karen said.

“Leave are you insane?! My daughter has just been admitted to the hospital, she’s 4 years old. I will NOT leave her!” I screamed at Karen.

“Emily, come on you can come back tomorrow morning she’ll be sleeping anyway.” Luke said.

“Thats right, Emily, she’s out like a light but if anything new develops we’ll let you know where will you be?” Karen asked.

“I’ll be at my home.” I whispered.

“Emily no your staying with us.” Laura demanded.

“Laura, I know you mean well but, I just want to be alone.” I said. “But can you drop me off there.”

“Sure, we will, Darlin” Luke said to me as he reached out and grabbed my had as we walked away from the hospital.

*~*At Emily’s House*~*

I walked into my house and glanced around. Everywhere, I looked was a reminder of either Lexie or Lucky. I walked toward the living room and tripped over Lexie’s teddy bear. I bent over and picked it up I held it close to me and breathed in the scent of her and felt its soft fur against my skin. I started to cry as I held it close to me. I sat down on the couch and pulled out a photo album. I started at the beginning where the pictures of Lucky and I were. Before, I started looking at the pictures I leaned over and turned the radio on.

Everything I Own By ‘N Sync

*~*
You sheltered me from harm
You kept me warm, you kept me warm
And you gave my life to me
You set me free, you set me free
The finest years I ever knew
Were all the years I had with you

*~*
“Lucky!” I screamed as he started tickling me. He grinned and leaned over and gave me a kiss. I smiled and laughed, and pulled him up from the blanket he was sitting on while we ate our picnic in the park. I ran toward the sno-cone cart, and got to grape sno-cones, and brought them back to where he was standing.

“Lucky, remember the first time we had these?” I asked.

“Of course, I do it was the first time I realized I loved you.” he answered.

“Lucky we were like, 12, oh but Em, I new I’d always be with you.” He said.

*~*
And I would give everything I own
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again
*~*

“Push Emily, come on one more here we go” Dr. Scanlon said.

I screamed and pushed as hard as I could and soon I heard screaming and crying fill the room, I sighed and brushed away my tears of joy and sadness, knowing little Lexie would never know her father. I reached out and touched her for the first time and realized what a little miracle Lucky and I had created.

“Hey, Lexie.” I whispered to her, “I’m your mommy and I love you very much.”
*~*
You taught me how to love
What it's of, what it's of
You never said too much
But still you showed the way
And I knew from watching you
Nobody else could ever know
The part of me that can't let go
*~*
“Lucky, oh my God! I haven’t seen you in ages!” I exclaimed as I stepped off the plane and entered Port Charles for the first time in a year.

“How could I miss seeing my best friend return from boarding school?” Lucky replied with that cute little grin of his. He reached over and gave me a hug, then bent over and picked up a single white rose, and whispered, “Welcome back Em!”
*~*
And I would give everything I own
I'd give up my life, my heart, and my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again
*~*
“Emily, will you go to prom with me?” Lucky asked.

“Lucky, did you even have to ask. Of course I will go to prom with you.” I replied.

Lucky leaned over and gave me a gentle hug and a kiss.
*~*
Is there someone you know
You're loving them so
But taking them all for granted
You may lose them one day
Someone takes them away
And they don't hear the words you long to say
*~*
“Nik, Nik get in here Lexie’s taking her first steps!!” I yelled into the kitchen. Nik came running into the room with a video camera in his hand. Lexie looked up at him and grinned right before she fell on to the ground and giggled. I bent over and picked her up and whispered in her ear, “Your daddy would be so proud of you.”
*~*
Yeah
Give up my life, give up my heart
Everything I own

You know, baby
My love for you will always be true
That's right
Because there is no me without you
*~*
“Happy Birthday, Lexie!” Luke said.

“Wow, I can’t believe she’s all ready one.” Laura exclaimed.

“I know it seems like just yesterday, I found out I was pregnant.” I said and my face fell.

“Emily, Lucky will always be in your life just remember that.” Laura said.

“I know, I know, it just hurts without him here sometimes it feels like I can’t breathe.” I said.
*~*
I would give everything I own
Everything I own
Nobody can love you...like I do
*~*
“Mama, Mama.” Lexie said.

“Lexie, did you just say Mama?” I said with my voice full of joy.

“Mama.” Lexie said again.

“You did! Lexie I’m so proud of you, your first words.”
*~*
And I would give everything I own
I'd give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again
Just to have you back again
*~*
“Emily, did you see that shooting star?” Lucky said.

“Yes, I did. Did you make a wish?” I asked.

“Yes. I wish that we will be together forever.”

“Lucky, we will be together forever.”
*~*
I closed the book and the tears started to fall faster and I walked toward the bathroom and reached for a box of tissues, and blew my nose. I reached up toward the cabinet thinking that my life can’t get any worse than it is now, I opened up a bottle of pills and poured some out into my hand..........

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